hahaha i have been in this strange mood lately, well not "strange" but its been a wedding mood for me. i have been looking at dresses, rings, bouquets.. haha fuck i feel so desperate.
i think its the baby. the idea of marriage keeps crossing my mind. people keep asking if my boyfriend and i will be getting married because of the baby, and honestly we arent. lol im not going to marry someone solely because im having a child with them. i want that "ideal" family and i want marriage but not because im having a baby with someone! i hate that everyone assumes we are going to get married because of our baby. lol, fucken losers. we will get married some time in the future. when we both are financially ready for it. lol honestly we were in vegas last christmas and were breaths away from just eloping. haha im semi-glad it didnt happen, not really how i imagined getting married ya know!
we are definitely in love and committed, but theres really no need to rush into marriage. i want a big, fat ass spectacular wedding... i would love to be Mrs. Rodriguez right now now, but im mrs. rodriguez with or without a marriage certificate. so it really dont make a difference to me :)
well this mood isnt very strange to me, i often go through this, i've been obsessed with getting married since i was like 13 years old. haha its all planned out in my head! crazy, yes and i love it :) but i totally thought this would be fun for everyone, cause i knooooooow yall are just as crazy as me!
if i were to get married tomorrow this is exactly how it would be. this is so outta my budget right now, hahaha but a girl can dream cant she.. donnnnt hate! lol
the dress by Pnina Tornai, 2008 collection (minus the ugly arm thingies)
the bouquet cause i love white lilys
the shoes *drools*
the hair, simple updo
the face would be a combination of these looks, just a simple neutral smokey eye (very neutral!).. and beautiful skin!!!!!
i could go on for days. i really want to create a scrapbook of my "dream wedding" but i feel like thats taking my crazy to another level. haha i totally wish i could have an unlimited wedding budget, wouldnt everyone love that?! ahhh the things i would do *mind wanders off*. hahaha my boyfriend is sitting next to me and he seems a bit disturbed.
good night for now ladies, i shall continue dreaming about my future wedding :)