LOVE

the last few days have been hard for me. as strong as i think i am or as strong as i know i could be i crumbled like a fucking cracker. i cried & cried and it still doesnt feel any better. i throw a smile on my face and some happiness in my voice, but i still cant feel it in my heart. it really wasnt that serious, but i really cant get over it. i dont know why im so weak right now. two years ago i would have been brushing my shoulders off, not giving a fuck... so why is it like this now? wheres has all that strength gone? fucking weakling

ughhhhh. im still hella hurting from my miscarriage and i cant really deal with this kind of disappointment right now. i got all kinds of ridiculous shit on my plate right now. i swear fucking up your life can happen in the blink of an eye, but having to put it all back together takes so much time and effort.

hes the strength i couldnt find in myself